i feel so drained from everything. i've been rather grumpy of late, rather teary-eyed. i cannot thank those who've tolerated my rants enough. i can only promise that i'd be there when you need me. i was absolutely zonked out after mambo on wednesday. yet i had to drag myself out of bed to meet siva for lunch, then amar for dinner. had a nice time catching up. by the end of the day, i was dead.
usual friday nights at beat. some interesting tracks were dropped. it slipped my mind that plain sunset were playing at home club. i missed them. what a waste. cass, denzil and daniel came along. it was their first indie night. i had a feeling they were bored. cass said it was interesting, denzil liked 2 songs. haha. sorry for making you guys wait, wait and wait for me to 'finish' bobbing my head. bumped into ian and toby. i sang my lungs out to the usual and not-so-usual tunes all the same. i immersed myself into the drum beats, and jumped around so much it was almost as if i was doing a cardio work out. i flung my hair and waved my arms just as everyone else did. i clapped my hands in sync with the djs, and i felt ecstatic. i wanted to forget it all, but i was close to tears.
"looks like it all went wrong...what am i to do, what am i to do..." "i just wanted to hold...you in my arms..." "in the morning, you know you won't remember a thing. in the morning, you that it's gonna be alright" "don't let the sun, be the one, to change you baby..."
nouvelle vague's playing at zouk later. a friend describes it as sexy and dangerous. hah. i don't quite feel like going. but i'm afraid that if i stayed home, i'd just go mad. i'm not walking away because should anything happen, i'd blame myself for giving up too early.
on a lighter note, i need to find that blog. amidst the vast, infinite spaces of the world wide web. where do i start.
