i've lost my bearings i don't know where i am lead me by your hand guide me through this strange land so that i may find my way back home
exams, exams, exams. i've suddenly lost the drive to study. my mind is so cluttered. i lie in bed all night struggling to sleep. and my eyes finally give way when the sun rises. it's painful. i hate phases of insomnia.
the mtec course is extremely useful. thank you yongzhi for taking time out, and being so patient. we recorded a bossa track yesterday. although i have no clue what or how to play, my fingers just moved with the groove, along the whites and blacks on the keyboard. it was liberating. if only we did that all night, then maybe i wouldnt have felt so. . . . it's not the emo phase. it's just a moment you cannot pin down with words; indescribable. you think and think and think. and you realise that really, you're on your own. anything real is frightening.
i guess gymming helps me let all that out. alot. but how frustrating to know that even though you've let out all that emotion, the back of your mind is still occupied. RAHRR. i need to break something or punch someone. no, i won't shoot. haha.
cass: yes, pineapples, salad and chicken breasts. they're delicious treats! (do not roll your eyes here) haha.
