they sit by the window pane sipping chardonnay. the awkward silence - a moment of romance gone awry he moves toward her and picks her up; yearning to redeem himself at a touch. he moves his hand along her body strips her off her pretty lingerie where the jewels sparkle against her naked skin gentle and soft cold she lets him, then shuts her eyes as she backs off in a two step motion he struts toward her simultaneously, grabs hold of her, harder this time she traps herself in his grasp counting down the hours until dawn breaks; where her dignity will once again be restored.
im done fighting. im done caring, for any living thing at all. well, maybe i could leave my mum out of this, just maybe. no matter how, being nice just doesn't pay. you get thanked and remembered for 5 seconds, after which your giving nature vanishes into molecules. or you get that weak pseudo reassuring smile that tells you how pathetic you are. friendships, relationships, familial ties, any form of person to person interaction. no more. it hurts too much to care, and i end up as the invisible, unimportant one. even the greatest king would crumble after 19 years of battling. and the saddest thing - tears mean nothing now. i can't cry. anymore.
i'll call this week mad week double o seven, simply because it sounds more interesting. somehow, my psychic prowess tells me 2007 wouldnt be such a good year, because 2006 ended on a bad note, the lack of closure, probably. the progression from 06-07 was almost unnoticeable. but amidst all the wellwishes, i shall put on an optimist veil. after the barbecue at victor's the dancers finally met up again, this time with only 5 of us turning up. wished the rest of you guys could've been there. then, because jenna was in bintan or some island tanning, i met her on saturday. in a bid to getaway from crowds, we met at coronation, devoured the terayaki beef and popiah at cosy corner, then headed down to serene centre for ice cream and a dvd rental. decided to walk from serene centre back home, since we were going to eat our ice cream anyway. i think long walks are my therapy for the year. back to mine, we watched the black dahlia. it's one of those movies that require concentration because it plays mind games, tiring but enjoyable nonetheless. too bad we didn't camwhore. jenna tan, i love you! we should have gone tanning that day babe! met up with my girlies on a visit back to cj. as always, the nostalgia hit the minute we stepped in. bumped into khai and teresa. spoke with our old teachers, sat in the canteen. talked and ate whilst the booming cheers (that all orientations had) made rude intrusions. and then we stared at the facilitators, then at the j1s, and laughed at ourselves back then. how scary it is that it's already been 2 years. scary i say. finally caught night at the museum. funny, as all ben stiler movies are, but not as much as i'd hoped it to be. well, no expectations right? blood diamond, on the other hand, was terrific. leonardo di caprio is effectively, THE MAN. perfect company + good movie = :) well, the reality is, however, school has started. i picked my modules rather irrationally this semester, and so i'd be saying hello to a mount everest of readings, assignments and tests. lets hope i don't get buried under, though. ps. pictures will be up soon. <3
i've never done new year's resolutions for a long time. i feel no need to. human nature works on impulse, and we thus should do things however, whenever, wherever we want to. are we shouldnt place ourselves in the comfortable middle zone and use the word 'try', because sub-consciously, trying is as good as not wanting to do something. decisions should be converted into actions almost immediately, then rendering new year's resolutions quite futile. but of course, every motivational speaker's tagline would be, it's always good to plan your personal progress step by step. that i don't deny. but planning on paper, regardless how nicely drawn will not matter, it is that mental effort that counts. besides, life is already a string of irrational events where planning is a concept conjured by the human mind for stability's sake.
