please just tell me your name, mister.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

i realised im always caught in trivial dilemmas. but somehow, it's the trivial that puts things altogether. another busy week to come - dance practices, performances, prom, after party, all back to back. yet i love the adrenaline rush of being busy, tired and worn out. at least it keeps my mind off things; for a while.

peculiarly, i really miss studying. maybe i'd flip through cold war notes and do econs mcqs soon. shrugs.

she waxed lyrical - 12:53 PM

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

excuse me for the lack of entries. it's been a great week; most definitely exhausting. too bad the cam was low batt to capture all these moments. partied out at the usual spot on wednesday night. these people deserve good mention

hudah, fadzlin, sam P (and friends), zu - mann you girls, i heard what went on in devils' after i got home. unbelievable, wished i was there. hotel 81 at geylang couldn't get any funnier.

fuzzy - you'd always be my dearest MAT. haha. kidding.

chloe, gosh, u were so cute! =))

cassie - so sorry i tipped over your drink. and you were lost in the crowd in your skinny frame you bitch! lol.

azizul - need i say more? *wink

keerthi, sharm, tangga, ravi, raja, hari - ma indian boys from cj. we got it spinnin'. had a blast! all that battlin' and c walkin' and erm.. pimpin wit me and ma girls? hee.

dance practice began this week. unfit to the max, i'd say. we were all on the verge of collapsing. tsk.

finally met ann after a gazillion years. the shoppaholic syndrome hasn't passed.

so i got a job already. it's gonna be a busy coming week with prom and stuff, then it's off to work and earning some dough. =)

she waxed lyrical - 5:16 PM

Monday, November 21, 2005

it's brilliant what just 10 minutes can do - make you legal. even though i've got a history paper in 8 hours' time, i feel exuberated that the big 18th has come. finally legal. yes. no more borrowing ids, giving bouncers lame-ass excuses, or whatever else. above all, it also spells more freedom; for the next 6 months at least. thanks all ma babies who've wished me. love ya'll loads too. and the unforgettable ones, it's party time. soon. haha. out.

she waxed lyrical - 3:50 PM

Friday, November 18, 2005

another exam review; lesson learnt - do not spot. the cambridge examination board is so unpredictable you cant ever know what their next move might be. stuff that came out last year could always come out again. thankfully, i had my back up plan. but this year's papers are all pretty weird anyway.

the unexpected call came from you again. i guess its the unexpectedness of it in itself that brings me such great joy. soulmates that can never be. a form of unrequited love. tres poignant, almost exuding the vibratos of a Shakespearean tragedy. i lose myself in our conversations, almost living out my ultimate dream - the bubble that bursts and leaves me with such great pain with the click of the phone. yet i can never exile you out of my life,; it is your presence that fills the empty glass jar, that brings the lost sheep back to where they belong. i'm hoping for the unexpected. what an irony.

she waxed lyrical - 12:11 PM

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

exams have been marginally alright; except for GP, which i think i screwed up pretty badly. but no point lamenting although it'd probably come back to haunt me now and then. nothing much going on, i'm just wondering what will happen on the last day of my paper. I'd be so lost without any direction; but that calls for worrying later. to all of you who fervently prayed for me and my fever, and all those who've given me best wishes and loves and all, i love ya'll so so much. so here's a big THANK YOU! =))

she waxed lyrical - 10:09 AM

Thursday, November 10, 2005

when is enough? when then can you feel confident enough? the answer is never.
just my luck that my physical self is disintegrating. i feel like a vegetable, utterly useless. the fever bug is attacking my entire self. panadol is not working, and time resting is time wasted. it's a make or break. what if. . . i feel like crying.

she waxed lyrical - 10:44 AM

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

these have been a tad overdue; but they do still deserve mention on this web space

1) congrats cuzzie Andrea on your newborn, Amelia Pang Ming Xuan =))
2) congrats cuzzie Jules on your wedding, which was tres awesome by the way. (your next task is to introduce some of your rich hot expat colleagues to me)
3) mummylicious' birthday on Sunday. Happy Birthday. Thai food was good.
4) Hudah babylove, Happy 19th munchkins. you know how much i love you; making me gay (in more ways than one) we'd do a double celebration once my A's are over ya.
5) Amar Preet; Happy schweet 18th to you doll. mwa.

amidst all these holiday celebrations, i'm chained to my books for the next three weeks. excited yet afraid. The Starbucks Liat Towers guys, thanks a bunch for encouragements, jokes and giving me some form of sanity. oh yes, peppermint lovers, you gotta try their newest concoction, peppermint mocha. it's better than ecstasy

A levels begin this friday, well its technically started for the rest of them, but i count my lucky stars i suppose. I'm quite a nervous wreck. The 'what ifs' always ring in my head; and thanks to some random guy, we have the Murphy's Law; which fortifies the quivering nerves. I guess i really am my worst enemy. . . and all the best to all the A level students. break a leg! =)

she waxed lyrical - 4:06 PM

Friday, November 04, 2005

the last puff of smoke exhaled,
the screen of my phone reads -
2:30am
i'm desperately hoping.
hallucinations of your voice
across the telephone line
lifting me up to bliss,
albeit a momentary one.

she waxed lyrical - 4:07 AM

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

shred the matt photographs into dust,
scar the pretty smiles;
the beauty that remains
paints so much pain
agony resides again within me
as these are broughtforth back
into my emptied mind.
i slam the album close,
flooding my bedroom floor with tears
curled up; alone
the heaviness of my heart let free
or so it seems

she waxed lyrical - 5:18 AM