please just tell me your name, mister.

Friday, September 30, 2005

life is a waking dream,
an idiot full of sound and fury,
signifying nothing.

she waxed lyrical - 3:06 PM

Thursday, September 29, 2005

how great when a blog entry that took you ages to write simply vanishes into the vastness of the world wide web. without reason. the wonders of technology, they say. i reckon, it's the lack of it.

i'm online when i should be studying. i can't help it. i need to download songs - specifically sappy boyband songs that were so 1995. sometimes i find myself unbelievable.

tuesdays and thursdays are almost self-declared holidays for me. i don't see a point in going when i only have a one hour lesson the whole 7 hours. 'study break' they tell us. right. they should really snap out of their delusion. we all know it will never happen. even if it does, it is highly unproductive. so i figured staying home sleeping in, hooking on to the world wide web, watching dvds and perhaps some attempts at studying would be a better option.

she waxed lyrical - 11:47 AM

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When along the pavement,
Palpitating flames of life,
People flicker around me,
I forget my bereavement.
The gap in the great constellation,
The place where a star used to be.

- D. H LAWRENCE "SUBMERGENCE"

she waxed lyrical - 4:52 AM

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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

my days are numbered. official countdown - 45 days to A levels. surprisingly, it's not as worrying as it should be. on top of that, it's 2 weeks more before school term ends. shrugs. not like i do much in school anyhow.

extended writer's bloc has set in. each time i feel like dealing with a subject, my train of thought is stifled. shrugs. maybe i just need a hiatus.

my face is coroded with multiple zits profusely popping out at any given time. i am munching on anything i can lay my hands on and this is my inverse weightloss program. shrugs. a levels and contentment precedes appearance, i suppose.

when you shatter your dearest porcelain piggybank out of anger, do you mend it back simply because it is sentimental? shrugs. i've made a choice. i can turn back, but why should i.

prelim results have been satisfactory thus far. shrugs. what do you care. it's never good enough.

she waxed lyrical - 1:50 AM

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Friday, September 23, 2005

woke up tres early today and headed to town to meet ann dearios. she's almost like the sister i never had. went shopping and spent like70 buckeroos and now the guilt is slowly setting in.

there are often so many things we want, but how many do we actually need? if all our wants are met, would our lives be even emptier than it already is?

she waxed lyrical - 1:14 PM

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Thursday, September 22, 2005

replies to tags.

ann: i love you, can't wait to see you honey.

sah: my appreciation for hiphop is waning with their meaningless lyrics, except for purposes confined to dance.

gwen: i ripped it off a friend's photo caption wayy back, and its stuck with me since. i only found out it was a song a couple days back.

rachel: i like bright eyes. kinda my new addiction of sorts.

it's really funny how my previous blog's template read lyrics from a rock song and it hardly drew comments. yet, with this blog, countless have been asking me questions about the title and the address. it's just quite tiring to repeat the same old story, like a broken tape recorder. especially since i'm pretty bummed out by emotional baggage myself that im left with no more energy.

weeks back, a friend consistently sent me some pretty good underground rock music, with lyrics that hypnotised me. my interest in commercial hiphop has been declining anyway, because their lyrics are bullshit and their rhythms are only confined to purposes of dance. as a result, i digressed and began downloading rock songs, which prove addictive. so bam, i've got lyrics stuck in my head, that ended up as a blog title. the blog address part has been explained above.
music is limitless, and genres are barely defined as fusion takes place. so i don't see a problem with myself beginning to appreciate rock music. it is their lyrics that draws me. in fact, it enhances my writing capacity, and i see it as a transcendence, a form of maturity.

she waxed lyrical - 3:08 PM

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

nurul hudah makes me happy beyond words, even when i know the worst is yet to come. i try my best to be contented, but each time i release myself from these handcuffs a new pair gets clapsed onto my wrist. when will this profusely flowing stream of despair end. it's bad enough having my past come back to haunt me, like a regular patron of my soul. without mercy, new 'patrons' have too jumped on the bandwagon.

i am tired. i don't know how much longer i can hold out. even in slumber, i am not spared. i wake in the middle of the night, uncertain of what's to come next. so many questions, too little answers. perhaps it'd be better if i ceased my brain capacity for just one second.

my carelessness annoys me so bad. i lost my specs for the second time, and i reckon my mum's gonna flip again. there my allowance goes..

she waxed lyrical - 11:04 AM

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Monday, September 19, 2005

does our past always come back to haunt us, in spite of our countless attempts to break free? we're almost perpetually entrapped within our own claustrophobia. i hate nightmares. fatigue's setting in with all those sleepless nights. doctor sir, will you please prescribe me sleeping pills. the ones that take me to eternal slumber will do just fine.

she waxed lyrical - 10:40 AM

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Saturday, September 17, 2005

goodbye friendster blog and diaryland. hello blogspot. i seem to be perpetually parked within the comforts of my room over the weekend. the oppressive heat is a major factor, not forgetting the tight budgeting. i'm looking forward to acquiring an mp3 player soon. it's a need more than a want. oh yes, and thanks to james and other external influences, i've woken up from my hiphop craze. i still respect old school hiphop, and i think it's wonderful music to dance to. but the hiphop numbers these days are so meaningless. their subject scope is only limited to cars, sex, booze and drugs. my interest has swerved towards rock. their musicalities and lyrics are much to be credited, sadly, more so than hiphop.

update on prelims. definitely not as intimidating as expected. i reckoned i've done my best given the time constraints. hopefully what little hardwork will pay off. i'm looking forward to the long weekend next week. time to give myself a little treat, then its back to work. 60 days more.

she waxed lyrical - 11:07 PM

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welcome to my new blog. yeyy. it's not fully done up yet. it's been quite a painful process deciding whether or not i should switch blogs. one, i think the previous blog address sucks. and two, i dig blogspot. on the other hand, the other blog is entraps the nuances of my life since wayy back, when i was that wannabe teengager with raging and fiery hormones. but i guess we can't always cling on to the past, can we. so time for a brand new blog. =))

she waxed lyrical - 12:36 PM

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